Lately I have made some foolish decisions–not decisions I knew were dumb, but uninformed decisions that I thought were adequate at the time. Unfortunately my decisions put others in danger. It cost one of my animals their life, a devastating blow. By God’s grace the other dangers only created a little property damage. I’m a big learner and try to study everything I am into, but sometimes a crucial piece of info gets missed. In the most recent events, I’ve made amends and even strengthened some relationships in the process, but it’s hard to deal with situations like these because you can “what if” yourself to death. I’ve spent hours wondering if I am to blame for some of it…was it really me, or my fault? Were there extreme circumstances that I would not have been able to predict? And in the process of trying to resolve the issues, asking: What if they send me to jail? What if the offended party tries to retaliate? What if they don’t believe that I really didn’t mean to harm anyone?

When your heart is in the right place, but you can’t communicate it, that’s a hard set of circumstances. Some people live do this because they don’t try to learn how to express love well. But I try really hard to love with wisdom and all my mind as well as my heart…and still sometimes I fail.

I can only trust that God will make up the difference, happily filling in the gaps when my best efforts fail. And I must give 100 percent to continuing to get more and more wisdom so that I avoid as many mistakes as possible.