This weekend has been about the question, why am I doing this? I definitely began following Christ for selfish reasons, but as I grow as a Christian I should become more and more selfless. And that test is never more real than when Jesus tells us to love our enemies. That’s not easy or fun…it’s hard.

I’ve been reading about David recently for a sermon–David was really good at loving his enemy. He refused to take his anger and aggression out on Saul, even when Saul repeatedly tried to kill him. He faced death at every turn in the process too. I am just not sure I could do what he did.

I also find myself wanting to become more selfish at times–to be recognized and praised for my faith, like the Pharisees Jesus is pointing out in this passage. I want some status for the person I have become, but I am reminded that the moment I return to doing good things for pride and public recognition, the benefits are gone.

Who am I doing this for? Why am I doing it? For God, and for me. I love Him and want to become the guy He called me to be. I also believe the way to true happiness is in following Him, and I want to be happy. If loving my enemy is the path to both, then let the hard work begin.